The Barriers of Self Consciousness & Leading by ExampleBy
My wholeness allows me to encourage my kids to be who they are instead of who I think they might want to be. It makes me confident enough to model confidence to them. There is not a shred of comparison between who I was broken and who I am now ~ whole. Without wholeness our family trip to Mexico would not have been so beautiful and so very close to perfect. I could not be the mother I am today if I had not fixed my foundation, as Carla explained in the previous post.
While in Mexico, I decided to get hypnotised at the hypnosis show one night. The kids had seen the show the week before and said it was the funniest thing they had ever seen. I have had a lot of judgements about hypnosis for the purpose of entertainment, but really had no frame of reference to have those judgements. This was a family show, and the kids told me everything he did the night they saw it. The kids wanted me to do it, and I said no way, but I got thinking about how I had tried to get my son to play pool volleyball, and a few other activities that week. I wasn’t willing to do those same activities myself, and likely for the same reasons; self consciousness. My daughter also held back from a few things that I suspect she really would have enjoyed if she had taken the plunge and jumped in. It dawned on me that I could be an example to them through my participation in things especially if I was nervous and self conscious about doing them. Therefore at the hypnosis show, I put my hand up and got picked to go up on the stage. I was pretty nervous at first, but being in a hypnotic trance was an interesting experience. To be honest, I didn’t think that I could be hypnotized due to my history of abuse and the depth of trust issues that I used to have but it was really fun, and I felt fantastic afterwards for over 24 hours.
I think leading by example is powerful. The next day, my daughter came with me to Spanish lessons. My son took a couple of classes too. My youngest went snorkelling with 2 guides from the entertainment team and didn’t make her father go with her. You should have seen us at the Toga Party the next night, dancing in the dance competition. I was so into just having fun that the guy beside me asked if I knew the dance! Picture me dancing in Mexico on the beach at night, following the Mexican teacher in front of me. Is that enough information for you to get the picture of how much hip movement I was doing in front of all those people?
This is living! This is participating in my own life. This is freedom. This is my life today, and I love it!
It is good to be home from vacation. I’m really looking forward to the plans that Carla and I have for our blog, and to interacting with all of you!
Life is Living!